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You are welcome here.

I cannot believe my last post was more than two years ago. I thought about what I would post a million times in my head, but never returned here to detail my thoughts. What a two years it has been. … Continue reading

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Another year gone by…

Two years ago today marks a day that will be forever changed. A day that will forever plague and haunt my┬ádreams. I cannot believe that two years ago today I watched my grandpa breathe in and out his last breaths. … Continue reading

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One Year Later…

I have been dreading this day. Dreading this journal entry. For one entire year, I have thought about this moment. Cried about this moment. Dreaded this moment. One year ago, I was helplessly watching my grandpa die. June 13 of … Continue reading

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Happy Birthday.

Wednesday would have been my grandpa’s 77th birthday. I originally wanted to write Wednesday night but my thoughts still can’t seem to wrap around how he’s not here to celebrate. I shouldn’t have to write about my grandpa’s birthday because … Continue reading

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Another Year

Wow. It has been over four months since my last post. I’ve needed to get back on here as a way of healing. Writing my words and thoughts allows me to heal…or at least thats what I think. So much … Continue reading

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Losing

Everyday is a battle. Every day I wake up not knowing whether or not it will be a good day. tI seems like lately I’ve been going through the motions just to get me through. I look back on each … Continue reading

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Only in my dreams

I see him everywhere. At first when he died, I cried out for him to come to me. He never did and I felt lost, alone and angry. He appeared to others in a dream, but not me. Why? Did … Continue reading

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Blue Skies, Broken Heart

They say the first stage in coping with death is denial. I wouldn’t know. I’ve never had to deal with anything like this before. One day he’s here and the next, he is gone. Gone. The end. I’ve never know … Continue reading

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