Category Archives: Dying

You are welcome here.

I cannot believe my last post was more than two years ago. I thought about what I would post a million times in my head, but never returned here to detail my thoughts. What a two years it has been. … Continue reading

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Another Glance

I saw my grandpa. I was at the mall with my husband and son and saw him. I had to take a second and third glance. An older, skinnier¬†gentleman sitting across the way looked exactly like him. I about broke … Continue reading

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Losing

Everyday is a battle. Every day I wake up not knowing whether or not it will be a good day. tI seems like lately I’ve been going through the motions just to get me through. I look back on each … Continue reading

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Downward Spiral

Again I sit here, typing this entry at the wee hours in the morning. It’s 1:29 my time. Again I cannot sleep because my mind races. Welcome to my life. Welcome to this nightmare. I feel as if my life … Continue reading

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Only in my dreams

I see him everywhere. At first when he died, I cried out for him to come to me. He never did and I felt lost, alone and angry. He appeared to others in a dream, but not me. Why? Did … Continue reading

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Ashes to Ashes

Today it hit me. My Grandpa died in the ICU 2 weeks, 5 days ago. I haven’t stepped foot into another ICU, which is very odd for me seeing that I work in a hospital. Today I had to go … Continue reading

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Blue Skies, Broken Heart

They say the first stage in coping with death is denial. I wouldn’t know. I’ve never had to deal with anything like this before. One day he’s here and the next, he is gone. Gone. The end. I’ve never know … Continue reading

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