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You are welcome here.

I cannot believe my last post was more than two years ago. I thought about what I would post a million times in my head, but never returned here to detail my thoughts. What a two years it has been. … Continue reading

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Another year gone by…

Two years ago today marks a day that will be forever changed. A day that will forever plague and haunt my dreams. I cannot believe that two years ago today I watched my grandpa breathe in and out his last breaths. … Continue reading

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One Year Later…

I have been dreading this day. Dreading this journal entry. For one entire year, I have thought about this moment. Cried about this moment. Dreaded this moment. One year ago, I was helplessly watching my grandpa die. June 13 of … Continue reading

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Another Glance

I saw my grandpa. I was at the mall with my husband and son and saw him. I had to take a second and third glance. An older, skinnier gentleman sitting across the way looked exactly like him. I about broke … Continue reading

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Happy Birthday.

Wednesday would have been my grandpa’s 77th birthday. I originally wanted to write Wednesday night but my thoughts still can’t seem to wrap around how he’s not here to celebrate. I shouldn’t have to write about my grandpa’s birthday because … Continue reading

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Another Year

Wow. It has been over four months since my last post. I’ve needed to get back on here as a way of healing. Writing my words and thoughts allows me to heal…or at least thats what I think. So much … Continue reading

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Losing

Everyday is a battle. Every day I wake up not knowing whether or not it will be a good day. tI seems like lately I’ve been going through the motions just to get me through. I look back on each … Continue reading

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Chaos

I can use one word to describe what life has been like since my last post. Chaos Life has been so chaotic lately. Life is always going, going, going. I’ve been meaning to write here since I’ve had a lot … Continue reading

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The Inevitable

Again tonight I cannot sleep. Not, though, because my mind is racing but because I am full of hope tonight. Today was a good day. A good day in a really long time. It felt good for once to rejoice all … Continue reading

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Downward Spiral

Again I sit here, typing this entry at the wee hours in the morning. It’s 1:29 my time. Again I cannot sleep because my mind races. Welcome to my life. Welcome to this nightmare. I feel as if my life … Continue reading

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