Monthly Archives: July 2012

The Inevitable

Again tonight I cannot sleep. Not, though, because my mind is racing but because I am full of hope tonight. Today was a good day. A good day in a really long time. It felt good for once to rejoice all … Continue reading

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Downward Spiral

Again I sit here, typing this entry at the wee hours in the morning. It’s 1:29 my time. Again I cannot sleep because my mind races. Welcome to my life. Welcome to this nightmare. I feel as if my life … Continue reading

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Only in my dreams

I see him everywhere. At first when he died, I cried out for him to come to me. He never did and I felt lost, alone and angry. He appeared to others in a dream, but not me. Why? Did … Continue reading

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Ashes to Ashes

Today it hit me. My Grandpa died in the ICU 2 weeks, 5 days ago. I haven’t stepped foot into another ICU, which is very odd for me seeing that I work in a hospital. Today I had to go … Continue reading

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Blue Skies, Broken Heart

They say the first stage in coping with death is denial. I wouldn’t know. I’ve never had to deal with anything like this before. One day he’s here and the next, he is gone. Gone. The end. I’ve never know … Continue reading

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